Handwritten vaults "part deux"

This is something I wrote in August of '05 and is still something I am working on to this day, "enlightenment"-wise. I was going through a lot of personal drama at the time. I have since cut many of the people out of my life that were contributing to said drama. The following sentiments are also the reason so many blogs make my eyes want to bleed (though I was not referring to blogs at the time) ...

"It's a time to put away all things cruel, anger-ful, resentful, nasty, spiteful, even revengeful. The only true path is that of Happiness, which is so HARD because one has to LET GO, get rid of, purge and CLEANSE oneself of all the attachments to said negative things. So many of us are defined by our gripes, our peeves, our hates, our dislikes, our battles, our quests for 'eye for an eye' et al, that we don't realize how we truly suffer in the process, how we truly LOSE ourselves by groping for external justification, gratification -- 'See, I told you so,' 'See, I was right all along,' etc.

I'm so bored with, so saddened by the inherent cruelty with which we treat one another. The sub/domme, the vampire/host, the liberal/conservative, the rich/poor ... all 'class' warfares. 'I'm right, you're wrong' seems to be the motivating factor behind all who engage in such wars, and I myself have been guilty ...

It's enough to make me CRAVE simplicity, silence, peace, that non-fear ... I feel like I just want to be a happy Buddha sitting on an unfolded lotus flower of Zen. Nothing to complain about, nothing to get worked up about, just, aaaaah .... "

(Uhm, Strawberry Fields Forever? Ha ha ...)